Sick of This

Okay i'm getting really tired of all this bs. This is why i hate females cause a lot of them are sooo dumb! Last night was probably the night where i cried a whole river ever since that day when i found out she was goin with my ex. I was just sooo frustrated and got even more hurt. Frustrated because she's like sooo dumb! Like she seriously needs to grow up. So i took a little of tasha's advice and decided okay i'ma TYPE her back and tell her i'm not gonna disucss shit unless she call me or face to face. Then she come back with some bull shit sayin how she gonna say the same things and tellin me SHE would be over it. How the fuck (sry for the language,lol) is she gonna kno?! I mean it hasn't happend to her, one of her cousins hasn't gone behind her back and started going out with her ex! Like untill that happens to her she can't say if she would be over it or not. I mean lets be for real...if you thought you loved some1 and lost ur v-card to him your not gonna get over it just in the snap of a finger. But i dont' think she's lookin at the whole picture. She realizes what she did but like the way she handled it with all the lies...I HATE LIERS!! Man up and tell the truth! And now she's tryin to stick up for him like he did nothing wrong! They both did wrong and...hes juss as much in the wrong as she is. And i'm guessing she thinks i'm takein this way out of proportion...honostly i'm starting to think i need to be a little bit more harder, back to my bitch ways (which by the way, where did they go?). Even tasha said i'm bein way too nice about this whole situation. But thank god i have such good friends...ahem, gus, ahem. Gus was a big help he pointed out things that i never did. Pointed out that she knows me the best out of all my friends (for she is my cousin!) and she would kno how i would react and YET! she still did it. And the hurt part she told gus why danni even went out with me. I was used basically...he needed some1 to get things off his mind (my cousin) and told her he didn't fall for me like he did her. So gus was like i'm sry but he is a jerk dick head. He goes how do you do that to a girl...and then not like her and take her virginity. And i never even thought of it like that, but it was soo true. Made me cry harder, but so true. And what bothered me more is that she wasn't even takeing that into consideration. She hasn't this whole time...how he's done me she dosn't even get mad or even care. I've been by this girls side alll the time! She says danni does 2...i've known her longer. I"M FAMILY! like all her bf's that have done her wrong in some way i have cussed out, threatend the whole nine yards. Then she gets all upset because ever since this happend she gets mad cause gus and becca seem to be closer to me and hang out with me more than her. I'm like hmmmmm must tell ya something huh? Ugh and it was soo hard to not cry at school 2day...i wasn't normal...but i just don't want ne one to worry ne more. I know my mother was really worried about me initially when this happend and i dont' want to worry her. Just all this drama i'm sick of it. I just want a break from this city...i really want to visit some1 this summer. And like i said uncle floyd lives too much in a boring city. If gas wasn't so high this summer i would take that road trip my dad told me to go on to visit my niece and nephew in Colorado. I could go see my other sis in Cali. but she's soo busy. Who knows i'll probably juss go to g-ma's house and juss relax...i just want to get a way from this city, to get things off my mind, ya kno? Well i needed to get that out and hopefully the next time i get on here ill have something more on the happy side...TTYL

Sam

Easter Weekend

I think the last time i posted a blog was hmmm maybe last sunday? Well if so nothing really has happend since then. Suprisingly i was really focused on my school work, can you blieve that?LOL. Other than that it was pretty much a regular week. Friday me and mom went shopping again cause i needed to make some exchanges. And we also went to Garden Ridge to get some flowers to replace the ones that are at my grandparents grave. My grandmother requested a few things but one is that she had to have flowers at her grave at all times. After that thats when i went to the mall...did my exchange and then walked around. Now, not to see if i could find those damn heethens but i needed to find some sunglasses, FA REAL! Ofcourse i didnt cause i'm so picky and the glasses that i had last summer i can't find or i think the dick head has em, so ya. Saturday i got woken up early because of my father decided to tear up the carpet. Then he kicked us out the house...i went to the cemetary (ghetto ass city) and my mother went shopping. I thought it was my turn to go up there and i wanted to talk to my grandparents about all whats going on. And, i talked to them for a good LOOONNNGGG time i wasn't even worried about the fact that i was in the straight up St. Louis city W. Florrisants ghetto ass! It really helped talking to them but i just really need a break from this city. I'm really wanting to get outta town, big time! Like i thought i was goin to florida with tasha but that change, so now i have no where and i wanna get out! If my uncle floyd didn't live in such a dumb city i'd visit them but id rather go somewhere else where there is family ya kno? Just to get away for a little while during the summer. After i visited the grave i went to meet my mom at the store to help her shop for the house, and after that we got into it. Cause she's bitchy and i'm pmsing and i thought it was quite hilarious to me, cause we was making a big ass scene in the parking lot. After i helped her out for the day me and tasha(BFF) went to the LOOP. We had too much fun cause of all the wierd people we saw but we ended up leaving cause it started to raind and headed for Gus's house. Tasha wanted to go cause he told her his mom and aunt was makein a fiest! So you kno she has to have some food. After they ate we went to walk around the mall for a little bit. Gustavo was soo high off his sinus medicine he was killin me the whole time. It seemed like he just got done smoking a join but it was just his medicine and the funiest highlight of that night at starbucks he asks the lady, "Do you have a tissue, i'm gonna sneeze!" I also gotta phone call from my cuzzin Bridget about her out of control know it all daughter. That was real fun! Ne who, after the mall we went back to gus's house and ended up playin v-ball at like 9 at night,lol. Then his uncle said we should go home cause a storm was comin and don't wanna get caught up in it. So i'm like 2 hrs home b4 cerfew, and my parents get like mad? LIke why am i home so early? WIERDO's hmmm. So now it's easter and i'm exhausted cause i've cleaned bathrooms, vaccumed and made a cake of which i still have to frost...so i'm gonna go and take a cat nap and make this frosting .....holler!

Love your one and only,
Samantha

Hellaz!!!

So it has came to my attention that i havn't written on here for a good lonnngggg time!! Hmmm what was Spring Break? Yea i think so. Wow so much has happend ever since then. LOl, i've been slacking huh? Well let me finish what else went on over break. Well thursday i took a little of a break, i didn't have ne more cleaning to be done and all i did thursday was study for those damn ACT's. Friday i was told by my mother not to do NE THING! So thats what i did i chilled the whole day. Erica wanted to go walk around the mall a little, so i joined her. While we were there we saw Ciera and Bryanna. Man! i have't seen her for over a year! So it was real nice to see her after soo long. While i was there Gus called me to see if i wanted to join him babysitting his cousins baby. Ofcourse i said yes!!! It was real fun cause it was just me, him, his cousin carmen and her husband and just talking. Duh i got my practice of Spanish in but we all had a good time. When Carmen and her husband left it was just me and gus chillen and then i went home. So the next day Ciera and Shyra were hosting a bar-b-que at Stacy Park. Well considering i kno those 2 very well, i didn't get ready till like 1:30 and it started at 2. Well knowing them it didn't start at 2. Really it didn't start till like 3...lol, damn black people! But that bar-b-que and fresh air and just having fun is what i needed from all that cleaning and studying. Then afterwards me and erica went to to see Ice Age 2 at the galleria...It was sooo GOOD!! except i had a damn kid kickin the back of my seat, but aventualy he stopped. But that was pretty much it of spring break. Next year it will be 10x better, cause tasha said we goin to New York so HELLZ YEA!

So during the first week back from spring break nothing really happend. Tasha told me her cousin is going to Florida so i'm out,lol. No biggy for me, i mean i have been there b4. My dad really wanted me to go still like he was gonna pay for my plane ticket and stuff. Idk i'd still want to go somewhere this summer. Hmmm i'll think about it. But that week went by sooo fast it was crazy! B4 i knew it was friday, and me and my mom went shopping. I've ben dying to shop but my mom was like dont' you want to study for your ACT's i'm like HELL NO! So we go all the way to the MIllz to go to Old Navy. And Gus calls me and he was like you kno yo cuzzin up there? and i'm like okay??? and he was like she with danny. I'm like so you want me to go to a diff. mall cause my cousin and my ex are up here together? HELL NO! Get outta here, if ne thing they ass's scared of me and they need to move when i come round! HAHA! But on a good note i got some really cute stuff! but we gotta go back cause i picked up the wrong size,lol. So i was told that she saw me but i didn't see here...ha! O WELL!!

So after that night i was hella tired and i went to bed cause the next morning i had to take those damn ACT's. UUGGHHH at f-in 8 in the morning! I was soo tired during that test it wasn't even funni! As soon as i got home i took a nap! However, i felt i did better than a 18. Cause usually i struggle the most with Math and Science and those 2 i felt i did really good on. Especially the Science cause i do the WORST on that part. So it wasn't a waste of money. So that day i slept all day untill me, dad and mom went to go to dad's friend daughters birthday party at dave and busters. SO FUN! i always have fun, made just for people like me. 7 year olds stuck in 17 year old bodies,lol. And because i love that place i became obsessed with a new game. It's called Police 911, and it's like one of those virtual things kinda. Like when you move the thing moves. And i was all in it when it said duck i was all the way down,lol. And i was sweaten and shit, because i was squatin so much my quades hurt sooo MUCH! Shows how bad i'm outta shape, but i felt like i straight came home from v-ball try outs,lol. But i needed it after that testing, i woulda had more fun if i had more energy but i sitll have fun joanin on dad's friends,lol.

Sunday i didn't do much besides clean and go to Tasha's. I had a wierd time cleaning, but when i got my music wat can i say, who dosn't? Tasha made me come over cause she wanted me to see her Prom dress. It was really gorgious! Even for a white dress it was really cute. Idk i'm deffinately not wearing white to prom cause i dont' plane on wearin all white till my wedding. For Senior Prom i'm makein my own dress...gotta be one of a kind and not like ne one else's! SO EXCITED FOR NEXT YEAR!! BUt when i came home i made dinner, of which i coulda done A LOT better,lol. But after that me and mom watched Kicking and Screaming, which was hilarious! I love Will Farrel! He wasn't as funni as he was in Elf, but pretty funni. But that night just totally ruined my night. That girl had the nerve to have her cousin talk to me all up in our business! OOO i was hella heated! I"m like grow the hell up! I'm serious, i mean she claims that she's an adult and can make her own decisions, well she needs to start makein those desicions. OO her cousin was pissin me off!! And i'm like whats up with this internet shit! MAN UP! uhh phone call or face 2 face. Ne ways! they really don't need to get into this cause they will regret it. Ne ways....I'm thinking this Saturday i'm gonna give g-ma and g-pa a visit and talk to them, i need their guidence.

Today was the 1st day of MAP testing, SUCKY! I HATE IT!. but suprisingly i was awkwardly productive. LOl, probably after seeing those 3rd quater grades, gave me a boost! But till some more interesting news....

Love your one and Only!
Sam