Okay so i'm on day 3 of my spring break, and in my opinion it's not much of a break. I think i've been cleaning everyday since Sunday for about 3-5 hours each day. Afterwards, i'm studying for the ACT's doing 10-20 pages of my book. So in no way is this a break. A break would be me sleeping in(i do that ne way), doing absolutely nothing threw out the day or tending to myself. I've already gotten some cleaning wounds already. I'm hoping 2day will be the last of cleaning, but after that i have to give my dog a bath if it's warm enough and Diego(my car) needs a bath 2. So it just never stops. And my headache's have done nothing but get better. I just have so much on my mind all at once. The ACT's, assignments for school, cleaning, chores, finding a job, drama....it's just all 2 much.
Last night studying for those damn ACT's was alright at first cause it was English workout. And i felt really good about that cause i was learning a lot and felt smart. Then it got to the Math workout and i just started to get frustrated and had to stop in the middle of it cause my headache started. Maybe cause i tried to fit so much into my day...i mean i started cleaning at noon and didnt' stop till 5...break for about 3 hrs and went right into studying. Who knows, im just extremely worried about these ACT's and stressed. I'm hopping to get a 21 for sure. If i do i'm pretty much accepted into LU(lynn university). I realized i'm extremely hard on myself when it comes to my Goals (or Dreams) and accomplishing them. Doing good on these ACT's means getting accepted into that good college and once that happens in my eyes i'm starting my career, my future, everything i ever wanted.
And not only am i worried about the ACT's but also school. I get a grade report from my Chem. teacher in my e-mail and my grade hasn't really moved from that 66%. Since i got a D on that test it kept me at that spot. I was very dissapointed cause i studied hard and believed that i did really well on that test. Not only that class that i'm worried about it's like all of them except for Ind. Study Drawing. I mean Marketing Management is just a hard class. I'm trying really hard to do well in the class. It's just the major project we have i think is rediculous and too time consuming. We work in partners but i'm always lookin at my business class as if it was real life. Since i want to own my own business one day i put everything on myself to get things done. And i realized that i shouldnt cause i also have other classes to worry bout and when i have that business one day thats all i really have to worry about. So there is a difference. This year i've just been extremely hard on myself cause i kno this is my Junior year, my most important year and i work my ass off. I really want to be successful in my life and my future. I want my kids to have a great childhood. I want to be able to repay my parents(mainly mommy) with all they had to do. I don't necessarily want to be like donald trump rich but in the area between upper class and middle class.
I feel that sometimes i try to prepare myself for that time when i become a mother or w/e. I mean all the chores i do and find time for school at the same time. I think i forget that i'm only 17 (but soon to be 18) and should have fun. I mean i do have fun a lot of the times. But i mean i do the things around the house without my parents telling me sometimes because i try to prepare myself for the outside world, to multi-task and get multiple things done at one time. My mother also does this 2 me...to prepare for the outside world. And i see that i'm more strict with that cause i see that i have 1 more year and i COULD be by myself. And she has prepared me with this ever since i was 7 learnng how to cook. And i guess you could say that i'm realizing that i have only 1 year here to prepare and possibly out to Florida to live by myself. I think i kno another reason why i wnt to go to college out of state cause i want to see if i can do it. After all this preparing my mother and i have done, i want to see if i'm able. They say when most kids go out of state for college come back home. I honestly think i wont. A lot of those kids have been babied all their lives. Yes i'm spoiled but i think i'm ready. I'm not going to lie and say i wont miss my family. OFCOURSE! i will.
This job thing is really pissing me off. I swear i've put applications in everywhere. No1 likes me. And i think i've just become realy picky with jobs 2. O well i'm still wanting to work at Scrubs and Beyond...but we will see about that.
Right now i'm feeling that Karma is coming back on me. Even tho in my eyes i' havn't done ne thing evil. IDK, she's just worked out things with her friends that she fucked up with...but hasn't even tried with me. I mean so she says that she's tried twice on the Internet. But she's called the other 2 and made things right and with one, was straight up begging. Idk, i guess i just fee like dirt and dont' feel as special as i did when we were like sisters. You would think that i would be the first on her list. I'm just really frustrated with all of this. Cause i miss her but i also can't ignore what she did. I mean there has been nights where i'm crying cause i miss her and i'm crying cause what she did. I'm just confused. I'm thinking sometime this week or weekend (depending if i go over gus's this week) i'm gonna go visit my g-ma to see if she can point me in the right direction. At this point i've just tried to be really strong right now and be the tough cookie. But at this point i want to burst!...Into tears. I've held in the frustration for 3 months and i need to let it out. But i go back to thursday and look at what a great day that was to hear from that old friend and to hear that apology from him. Well now that i got a lot of things off my chest, i'm gonna go CLEAN! WOO HOO!!! So till some more things erk me....
Confused and Weak,
Sam
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
Friday, March 24, 2006
Friday Night....And Nothing 2 Do
Okay it's Friday night and i'm at home...Really odd for me. But in a way a like it cause it gave me a chance to relax. I'm finally on Spring break after like 2 weeks after every one else. But i truly need this break. I've been stressed out pretty much this whole quater with grades. I mean if my grades this quater arn't as good as they were my 1st quater, i mean i just gotta work my ass off 4th quater....as if i havn't been doing that. Ugh i hate school, i just want to graduate and go to college and start my life.
So this past week i really havn't written any thing. Along with being busy with school and shit; nothing really exciting happend. I think everyday this week i've been coming home takeing a nap and thats bout it. I havnt talked to Gus this whole week; wonder whats he's been up to lately. I got really pissed this week with the outcome of American Idol wednesday. I kno my Sis is going to disagree with me but i wanted Kevin to stay. He's SOO CUTE! He really does look like Chicken Little and thats one of my Fav. movies. Who i thought really needed to leave was Ducky Bucky. Ya know how every season theres that ONE person who you really want to go home but stays there majority of the show? Well this year is Ducky the Bucky. I really dislike him. But i guess as long as he dosn't win i'll be happy. I realized i've been really violent this week also. I almost wanted to slap a ho when she told me to stop poppin my gum. I mean i didn't get to see who it was...but i know it was a Frosh or Sophty. I tell ya, they have no respect for the upper class. Oh tasha calls me like thursday and says that since her mom works at the Barnes that they get special deals on Six Flags tickets. We only have to pay like 26 or somethin instead of 44. HOW GREAT IS THAT! I think i'm most excited about that. I mean i would be about Florida if i knew for sure i was going. But i have like 1 week and i know. I'm pretty much excited for the whole summer. I mean i'm pretty much booked. I mean i'm tryin really hard to get a job!!! Then i have summer school to take this computer course or else sam ain't graduating. But the activities start off with the Valley of the Flowers which is a carnival up in North County. This will be my 3rd year and i'm hopin i dont get thrown in jail...cause all i gotta say i get a mean mug i'm sayin somethin and if she or HE want to put a hand on me I"M GOIN TO JAIL! I AIN"T LYIN! And thats at the begining of may. The end of may i'm not sure wats going on yet...I'm hoping my Uncle FLoyd comes to town cause they havn't been here for a good 2 years and i miss them a lot. But if they dont' i'm probably going down to my grandmothers house. Now i kno it's been a good 8 months since here death but i'm still dealing with it. I mean it's been a while, and i'm still coping; is that bad? I mean i've only dealt with like 3 family deaths and this one was the hardest. Because the other 2 i knew but it wasn't like me and my grandmother. I mean that was really the only grandparent i grew up with. And now i only have my grandfather and like i said she was the only one i grew up with and i'm not as close to him as i was with her. I just miss her so. . . and it seems like some situations when she left just seemed to get worse. Well ne ways she's in a better place and she fought a hard fight, and i was proud of her. So i guess i have that feeling when i go down there eventually i'm gonna burst out into tears when i see she's not there. Cause thats what i feel like now that she's down there doin her thing planting and stuff. But let me stop b4 i start crying. So after that school is pretty much out and Erica always has her end of the year party that weekend and that is ALWAYS fun. I mean it's the country, how can it not be fun? So then after that excitment a week later and i take the ACT's again! But if i got with Tasha to FL. the next day is when we would be leaving. And i know it will be just like those commercials with those kids that are goin to Disney World...I will NOT be able to sleep,lol. So coming home from that weekend i'm guessing sometime after that we're going to 6 flags, and i'm looking forward to that cause i havn't been ever since 8th grade. Idk if it's because i just havn't had the chance or the fact that my ex works there. Hmmm well who cares i kno i'm going this year! And then threw out the summer we're going to City Meuseum, Magic house, Zoo, Science Center and then there will be me and Tasha's party. So this summer is pretty full i mean it has to cause this will be like my last summer In STL maybe...so we gotta live it up!
Okay new topic. So thursday night i get a yahoo IM from the past. I've known him ever since i was in 8th grade. And we've always been on this no talking thing on and off. When i first met him i really liked him cause he was really good to me and just a really good friend. But he changed a lot and let people impression him etc...I stopped talking to him about May of '05 cause he called me out my name just totally disrespecting me. And that wasn't the 1st, i wouldn't pay any attention to it cause i knew he was going threw a lot. But that day i just got fed up with it and i'm like fuck you i dont' deserve this. So ne ways back to last night. He pops up and says hello. And i rememberd my goal for the year is to forgive and not hold ne more grudges. So i'm like hi how r u and stuff....And b4 ne thing else he says he's sorry for callin me out name and how stupid and immature he was. Also how i didn't deserve that and i was always good to him. And i'm like WOAH!! i mean for a moment i was like is this him? But as i talked to him more i realized it really was him. It was nice to talk to him again after a while almost a year. We exchanged #'s etc...But every1 keeps asking me if im thinking if it was possible to go with him would I? And i mean i dont' think i'm mentally ready for that yet...And i can't bast it off of one conversation thats happend. But i mean i realized how paranoid i was about being played again. Like when he talked he said he'll call me soon or w/e and never did and thats when i just started thinking like a crazy person. He could of just did that to get kicks out of it or something idk. Like if i called him would it be like some dissconnected line or somethin just to hurt me. I guess for what i just went threw i've been having that mentality now. I mean i never had the test with the guys ever since it happend; untill now and i realized how it's affected me. Well i still have to bring this to Randoms attention cause thats my source now to kno if a guy is B/S'n me or not. So we'll see...not because of the whole getting seirous thing....but just to know that he's right again for just that friendship.
Okay well thats all this week so far...Nothing much, just this tiny dilema. 2morrow i don't have any plans amazingly, and for Spring Break is nothing but Excercising, Cleaning and Studying for those good ol ACT's coming up April 8th. So till something interesting....
Your One and Only,
Sammy D
PS. Dont be afraid to give me advice or comment on this blog....
So this past week i really havn't written any thing. Along with being busy with school and shit; nothing really exciting happend. I think everyday this week i've been coming home takeing a nap and thats bout it. I havnt talked to Gus this whole week; wonder whats he's been up to lately. I got really pissed this week with the outcome of American Idol wednesday. I kno my Sis is going to disagree with me but i wanted Kevin to stay. He's SOO CUTE! He really does look like Chicken Little and thats one of my Fav. movies. Who i thought really needed to leave was Ducky Bucky. Ya know how every season theres that ONE person who you really want to go home but stays there majority of the show? Well this year is Ducky the Bucky. I really dislike him. But i guess as long as he dosn't win i'll be happy. I realized i've been really violent this week also. I almost wanted to slap a ho when she told me to stop poppin my gum. I mean i didn't get to see who it was...but i know it was a Frosh or Sophty. I tell ya, they have no respect for the upper class. Oh tasha calls me like thursday and says that since her mom works at the Barnes that they get special deals on Six Flags tickets. We only have to pay like 26 or somethin instead of 44. HOW GREAT IS THAT! I think i'm most excited about that. I mean i would be about Florida if i knew for sure i was going. But i have like 1 week and i know. I'm pretty much excited for the whole summer. I mean i'm pretty much booked. I mean i'm tryin really hard to get a job!!! Then i have summer school to take this computer course or else sam ain't graduating. But the activities start off with the Valley of the Flowers which is a carnival up in North County. This will be my 3rd year and i'm hopin i dont get thrown in jail...cause all i gotta say i get a mean mug i'm sayin somethin and if she or HE want to put a hand on me I"M GOIN TO JAIL! I AIN"T LYIN! And thats at the begining of may. The end of may i'm not sure wats going on yet...I'm hoping my Uncle FLoyd comes to town cause they havn't been here for a good 2 years and i miss them a lot. But if they dont' i'm probably going down to my grandmothers house. Now i kno it's been a good 8 months since here death but i'm still dealing with it. I mean it's been a while, and i'm still coping; is that bad? I mean i've only dealt with like 3 family deaths and this one was the hardest. Because the other 2 i knew but it wasn't like me and my grandmother. I mean that was really the only grandparent i grew up with. And now i only have my grandfather and like i said she was the only one i grew up with and i'm not as close to him as i was with her. I just miss her so. . . and it seems like some situations when she left just seemed to get worse. Well ne ways she's in a better place and she fought a hard fight, and i was proud of her. So i guess i have that feeling when i go down there eventually i'm gonna burst out into tears when i see she's not there. Cause thats what i feel like now that she's down there doin her thing planting and stuff. But let me stop b4 i start crying. So after that school is pretty much out and Erica always has her end of the year party that weekend and that is ALWAYS fun. I mean it's the country, how can it not be fun? So then after that excitment a week later and i take the ACT's again! But if i got with Tasha to FL. the next day is when we would be leaving. And i know it will be just like those commercials with those kids that are goin to Disney World...I will NOT be able to sleep,lol. So coming home from that weekend i'm guessing sometime after that we're going to 6 flags, and i'm looking forward to that cause i havn't been ever since 8th grade. Idk if it's because i just havn't had the chance or the fact that my ex works there. Hmmm well who cares i kno i'm going this year! And then threw out the summer we're going to City Meuseum, Magic house, Zoo, Science Center and then there will be me and Tasha's party. So this summer is pretty full i mean it has to cause this will be like my last summer In STL maybe...so we gotta live it up!
Okay new topic. So thursday night i get a yahoo IM from the past. I've known him ever since i was in 8th grade. And we've always been on this no talking thing on and off. When i first met him i really liked him cause he was really good to me and just a really good friend. But he changed a lot and let people impression him etc...I stopped talking to him about May of '05 cause he called me out my name just totally disrespecting me. And that wasn't the 1st, i wouldn't pay any attention to it cause i knew he was going threw a lot. But that day i just got fed up with it and i'm like fuck you i dont' deserve this. So ne ways back to last night. He pops up and says hello. And i rememberd my goal for the year is to forgive and not hold ne more grudges. So i'm like hi how r u and stuff....And b4 ne thing else he says he's sorry for callin me out name and how stupid and immature he was. Also how i didn't deserve that and i was always good to him. And i'm like WOAH!! i mean for a moment i was like is this him? But as i talked to him more i realized it really was him. It was nice to talk to him again after a while almost a year. We exchanged #'s etc...But every1 keeps asking me if im thinking if it was possible to go with him would I? And i mean i dont' think i'm mentally ready for that yet...And i can't bast it off of one conversation thats happend. But i mean i realized how paranoid i was about being played again. Like when he talked he said he'll call me soon or w/e and never did and thats when i just started thinking like a crazy person. He could of just did that to get kicks out of it or something idk. Like if i called him would it be like some dissconnected line or somethin just to hurt me. I guess for what i just went threw i've been having that mentality now. I mean i never had the test with the guys ever since it happend; untill now and i realized how it's affected me. Well i still have to bring this to Randoms attention cause thats my source now to kno if a guy is B/S'n me or not. So we'll see...not because of the whole getting seirous thing....but just to know that he's right again for just that friendship.
Okay well thats all this week so far...Nothing much, just this tiny dilema. 2morrow i don't have any plans amazingly, and for Spring Break is nothing but Excercising, Cleaning and Studying for those good ol ACT's coming up April 8th. So till something interesting....
Your One and Only,
Sammy D
PS. Dont be afraid to give me advice or comment on this blog....
Sunday, March 19, 2006
another rather interesting weekend...
Well this weekend wasn't the best of weekends but i did have fun. Friday, me and my mother got into because i didn't want to eat left overs...isn't that some shit. Then i go into my room so that way she can watch the tv in the family room. Her ass just comes bargin in my room thinkin i'm in there poutin cause i dont' have my way. PLEZ get the fuck outta here over some damn food!? Uh lets grow up here. I'm like would u just leave me alone?! So i end up havin left overs ne way while i'm watchin Sharkboy and Lavagirl for like the 3rd time (cause it was on HBO). Then i guess she realized she was trippin cause she started actin nice towards me. I'm like w/e i ain't got time for her bi polar ass. I mean im the one who should be goin off cause i'm my aunt flo is here. I mean i was even bein the nice daughter and asked her if she wanted me to help her with dinner for St. Patrciks day and she said no dont' do nothin....THEN i ask her if she gonna be up to it and she was like O YEA! So i have no idea why she was gettin mad at me.
So Saturday turned out better than i thought. All afternoon i didn't get a phone call from ne one besides Gustavo and he wanted to kno if i was comin threw or not. I wans sure cause i didn't here from Tasha OR Erica. And usually i dont' hear from Erica like at 12 real early. So i'm like i guess i ai'nt doin nothin 2night. But then i get a phone call from Tasha sayin she hasn't hurd from her man and shit so i planed some stuff with her. And i think it's turnin out that i'm goin to Orlando with her. OMG! i'm excited. I've been there b4 but i was like 7 so it's gonna be much more fun and i was there with all old people so deffinately more fun! So me and her ended up goin to Gus's house for a little bit and i met his Grandmothers, THEY ARE SOO CUTE! and funni! They came in the DR a couple weeks ago to stay with him. So erica ends up callin me just then i'm like okay so if you want 2 i thought she was goin to some SLUH mixer and she was like no not no more. So she works her way over to North County and ends up she gotta turn around because she left her purse at home. So we bout to leave gus's house to go to Latino's so he can get some money from his mami. But we gotta wait for Angel dumb ass cause he needed a ride over there. And him and tasha cant stop joanin on each other. But then were off to the mall once gus gets his money. And we just decide to shop and eat. And in my case scope for guys...lol. So then we eat and me and tasha are stuffed but ofcourse gus's domincan ass is STILL hungry. So we walk around for a lil and he seein all these people from school and shit. And we decide to leave and go to Dairy Queen for cheap ice cream,lol. Sat there and had some good laughs. Then we were like now what? So we dicide to chyll at gus's for a while. But he wants to rent a movie with the money he has...So me and tasha decide that he really needs to see The Color Puple so that way he understands most of the jokes in the Madea movies. Get there they got rid of his subscription or w/e. So we end up goin to his house and when we get there tasha'a fav. person is there...ANGEL! LOL! so we go in there and like he had me crackin up as usual. He leaves with his friend and it's just the 3 of us and gus's grandmothers and mami. And then me and tasha went home cause her ass was tired! I mean TIRED! This girl was talkin straight up NON-SENSE! And when i got home i pretty much went to sleep. And i slept till like 11:30, pretty late for me. Then i clean bathrooms and help dad move this shit around and vaccumm. So i'm pretty exauhsted! and i've had nothing but like a black cloud fallow me all day 2day. So i'm pretty much frustrated with a lot. I dont even wanna try and do hw cause i will get even more frustrated! Even tho i should cause i got this week here to do good or w/e cause the quater ends but it's SOOO MUCH stuff! NO JOKE! ugh i hate school work! Well then i gotta do some MORE cleanin...the kitchen and puttin food away. I mean DAMN only thing my mom did 2day was go to the grocery store, didn't realy cook fa real. Help me out some SHIT!. but of course not. So i'ma leave yall with this little passage and i'm going to start on this kictchen i guess....till then
Love,
Sam
So Saturday turned out better than i thought. All afternoon i didn't get a phone call from ne one besides Gustavo and he wanted to kno if i was comin threw or not. I wans sure cause i didn't here from Tasha OR Erica. And usually i dont' hear from Erica like at 12 real early. So i'm like i guess i ai'nt doin nothin 2night. But then i get a phone call from Tasha sayin she hasn't hurd from her man and shit so i planed some stuff with her. And i think it's turnin out that i'm goin to Orlando with her. OMG! i'm excited. I've been there b4 but i was like 7 so it's gonna be much more fun and i was there with all old people so deffinately more fun! So me and her ended up goin to Gus's house for a little bit and i met his Grandmothers, THEY ARE SOO CUTE! and funni! They came in the DR a couple weeks ago to stay with him. So erica ends up callin me just then i'm like okay so if you want 2 i thought she was goin to some SLUH mixer and she was like no not no more. So she works her way over to North County and ends up she gotta turn around because she left her purse at home. So we bout to leave gus's house to go to Latino's so he can get some money from his mami. But we gotta wait for Angel dumb ass cause he needed a ride over there. And him and tasha cant stop joanin on each other. But then were off to the mall once gus gets his money. And we just decide to shop and eat. And in my case scope for guys...lol. So then we eat and me and tasha are stuffed but ofcourse gus's domincan ass is STILL hungry. So we walk around for a lil and he seein all these people from school and shit. And we decide to leave and go to Dairy Queen for cheap ice cream,lol. Sat there and had some good laughs. Then we were like now what? So we dicide to chyll at gus's for a while. But he wants to rent a movie with the money he has...So me and tasha decide that he really needs to see The Color Puple so that way he understands most of the jokes in the Madea movies. Get there they got rid of his subscription or w/e. So we end up goin to his house and when we get there tasha'a fav. person is there...ANGEL! LOL! so we go in there and like he had me crackin up as usual. He leaves with his friend and it's just the 3 of us and gus's grandmothers and mami. And then me and tasha went home cause her ass was tired! I mean TIRED! This girl was talkin straight up NON-SENSE! And when i got home i pretty much went to sleep. And i slept till like 11:30, pretty late for me. Then i clean bathrooms and help dad move this shit around and vaccumm. So i'm pretty exauhsted! and i've had nothing but like a black cloud fallow me all day 2day. So i'm pretty much frustrated with a lot. I dont even wanna try and do hw cause i will get even more frustrated! Even tho i should cause i got this week here to do good or w/e cause the quater ends but it's SOOO MUCH stuff! NO JOKE! ugh i hate school work! Well then i gotta do some MORE cleanin...the kitchen and puttin food away. I mean DAMN only thing my mom did 2day was go to the grocery store, didn't realy cook fa real. Help me out some SHIT!. but of course not. So i'ma leave yall with this little passage and i'm going to start on this kictchen i guess....till then
Love,
Sam
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
A rather.....Bad day
So i guess you could say 2day wasn't the best of my days. I mean trust i've had worst days...just today was a day when i didnt feel well and then something on my mind that was bothering me. I guess when i woke up this morning for school, i kinda knew i was gonna have a crapy day. Sometimes i wish i was guy i hate this woman intuition crap! But ne ways i felt bad for my mother this morning cause i ended up having her take me to school when normally i get a ride but she was late. She seemed a bit pissed but i think i had more of a chance of being late for school then she would for work. My day got a little better when i saw i scored a C on my Gov't and Poltics test. It's not the best but me and ne thing dealing with Social Studies don't mix so for me it's good. Then towards the end of my next period wich is Algebra 2 i start to get a headache. And by the time i get to my next class Formula Writting i got this MIGRAINE! And i tried so hard to be focused because i got a lot to be due b4 spring break which is in about a week and a half now. And i really want to keep my A in that class. And i started to get writters block and not know what to write about. My good friend Chris suggested my past relationships...Is he serious? Believe it or not he was but i was like "Chris if i write about that it will be nothing but cuse words." So then he suggest to write about the "good" times. I"m sitting there it's hard to talk about "good" times when it was really nothing because most relationships i was used to get to some1 else. He brighten my day when he said he wanted to kick his ass...i replied and asked why he was like he didn't do you right, i dont' like that. I'm like it's a shame how my friends can care so much for me but my own family cant. I mean i know it's been like 3 months since all this shit went down....i still havn't gotten over it. I'm still hurt. I can't get over when your own family can choose you over a guy. I feel like i find myself blaming me for what happend. Like i did something to her for her to do me like this. Like she was a sister to me and i put everything aside when she needed me i cussed out every guy that did her wrong. I didn't go back and talk to her ex's or ne thing like that. I just still don't understand!!! I'm still frustrated with all this...It's been 3 months but if you only knew. Not only was my heart broken by a guy AGAIN also by family and i think it will be a good while b4 it becomes whole again. Idk bout all this shit sometimes i feel like this is seriously gonna push me into some Counseling. And like it really bothers me when she realizes that she's lost her 2 best friends because of her stupid decision and like the one she does everything in her will to be friends with him. And like i feel like dirt...like am i not worth all that effort you gave him as a "friend" but me as your family; i get 2 attempts on the INTERNET to make things right. Idk today this all was on my mind a lot and i guess thats what made that Migraine. But on the brighter side my aunt flo visited and like i LOVE birth control cause the first time in my life i don't have the river and cramps like a bitch! I could seirously kiss my gyno. for saving my life. Well i just had to vent out all this crap somehow cause i know some people who know all about this probably get tired of me talking abou but truth is i'm glad i got this blog so that way i can get it out somehow. Okay so in 6 min American Idol is about to come on and i think Bucky Ducky or Ace Ventura (dont' u love their nick names) is gonna get kicked off. Bucky totally butured(sp?) MY SONG! but ne who...I'm out and thanks for listening/reading.....
Love,
Sam
Love,
Sam
Monday, March 13, 2006
Dreams...
"Everything that ever was or is, started with a dream..."~Lava Gir from "Shark Boy and Lava Girl" the movie. Yes i kno, "Sam arn't you a little too old to be watching the 10 yr. old crowd movies? Well it goes to show how much you know me. I'm so much a 7 yr old stuck in a 17 year old body. But thats deffinatly NOT my point. I watched this movie for my 2nd time Sunday afternoon, and this quote just jumped out at me. You should really watch these kids movies these days, you learn a lot. But i really loved this quote, i guess you could say it really explains me and my beliefs. I mean i've always been the BIG dreamer. As every little girl would dream big, about having a pony one day and obnoxious things like that. But i guess as a 17 yr old you can call them "dreams" but i like to call them goals. God Bless my mother because she never laughed or put my "dreams" down. She saw them as reachable goals that i really want to accomplish. I believe becoming and fashion designer and owning my store and possibly makeing it big is possible. This has been my dream ever since 6th grade or so. My father hasn't been so supportive about the whole fashion design thing and dosn't beleive im going to be as succesful as i may believe. There have been many times when i felt that i wouldn't be able to do it because i saw that a lot of people were involved with makeing clothes or w/e since they were little. And then i did a project on Vera Wang my Freshman year of high school in my Fashion class. Vera is truly my idol. I believe if i remember correctly that she went to college, designed clothes for figure skaters and then was a fashion editor and then to the fabulous wedding gown designer she is today. I never really look up to the singers that become designers or the actors that become designers. I believe in working your ass of to get what you want, it's not juss gooing to get hand fed to you. And thats what i believe what happend to Baby Phat and J.Lo etc....Although being hand fed would be nice but i like the fact of working my ass of and just feeling the greatness of over joyed when you've accomplished everything that you've "dreamed". And you have to go back to the quote and realize everything you own everything that exist started out with a dream. You can go back in history and think schools, jobs public places wouldn't be with much diversity if it wasn't for Dr. King. And it's all proven in his "I had a dream..." speach. You can look at present time with the new Hybrid cars, it started with a dream. I really feel sorry for those who believe that they will come out as nothing in their life. I learned a theory in my Oral Communications clase called something like the Self-Fulfillment Prophicy. Meaning that if you believe your going to be nothing in life well odds are, your not going to. I get really mad at the people who say they really want to do something and then say they can't because they don't have the grades or potential. I look at it this way if you really want to be something in your life doctor, singer or photographer you got to work at it. You HAVE to do good in high school. High school is nothing you shouldn't mess around with, it's only getting you ready for college and that gets you ready for your career. So if you come home everyday and talk on the phone and failing all classes, i dont' have much sympathy for you. And all i want to end on is this...I WILL become what i want to become and that is a succesful fashion designer running my own business. And for those who want to be something; believe it, work hard, put everything you have into it. Because if you don't, you must want to work on that Blue Light Special.
Your One And Only,
Sam D.
Your One And Only,
Sam D.
Sunday, March 12, 2006
DA WEEKEND BAAYYYBBBBYYYY!!!!
So this weekend was pretty good. I really enjoyed myself. So friday me and Tasha decided to do some homework. Cha right it was mostly talking about stuff. Parents, Florida and that girl. Like i never really realized how her mom gets on her nerves. She seems so cool, but thos are the parents that you gotta watch out for. Cause everyone thinks my dad is so cool and they think it's impossible for him to be so frustrating, well suprise he IS! Then the subject of Florida popped up a lot cause it's getting closer and closer. And i'm SO excited! Like seriously i never went out of town with a friend, juss a no longer relative....and we were a lot younger. We got to have our seperate room and stuff, but it wont be like wat me and Tasha gonna do. Cause think bout it we get to do a lot more ya kno? Were 17 gonna be 18 soon....so ya. Lookin for the good ol boys! I'm real excited! And then like i'm really suprised how close me and tasha are. I dont kno if having the same exact b-day has ne thing to do with it, but like i feel like i've known her my whole life. But like the thing is i feel like i'm always in the middle of her and erica. Idk it's complicated. And like me and her were talkin bout that girl. Like me and her truly believe in KARMA! and damn is it payin off right now. I mean like seriously i'm lovin it! But i'll go into detail bout that in a min. So then we went to my house to watch Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. It was my second time but it was her first. And i was SOOOOO tired! So then i took her home and i came home and went to BED!
So then the next day i knew i had to wake up kinda early to get ready for Erica's parents Aniversary party. Woke up did like 3 loads of laundry and watched television. Vaccumed and then got in the shower and straigtend my hair. Man do i HATE my hair! It's soooo much work! I mean like blow dry it, and then straighten it....You have no idea. After all that i was gonna take a nap but i didn't have enough time. So i basically got dressed and talked to tasha for a lil even tho i was bout to see her in a hour or so. BUT THEN!! this is really what started my night on the right foot. So my lil bro Gus calls me and was like so guess who i juss got off the phone with? I'm like idk so he goes that girl. I"m like O SHIT! lol. So he's tellin me all this shit that went down and how he ended hangin up on the girl. I'm like O DAYUM! I LOVE KARMA! I mean for all yall that read these and you wanna find out more about wat i'm talkin bout juss pop up and ask. But fa real...i kno her ass is probably thinking i'm behind all of this shit, but shit it's all KARMA BABY!!! i feel soo sry for really REALLY nieve people. BUT NE WHO! So after gettin off the phone with him i went to tasha's house early cause she didn't kno what to wear...We left and i was on my way down in the city of St. Louis. MAN! i finally found where that whole Hispanic festival was at. I knew it was on Cherokee but i didn't kno it was in South City. And OOOO WEEE! i saw this really cute hispanic cross the street. I"m like DAYUM!!! Tasha was like you shoulda walked into the lil hispanic grocery store. I really should've but man this year i'm goin with gus to that lil festival thingy. So were at the Ballroom place thingy for the party and man did i have a good time! After Erica's parents finally arived everyone started to dance more. Even all 3 of us did,lol. It was the electric slide then the macarina. Then i was hella hott and tired i took a break and her and tasha did the Cha Cha slide. So it was all fun. What really made my night is that this HUGE guy comes up to erica and asks to dance with her and like he's really wierd right? And like i thought it was HILARIOUS! cause like their slow dancing with each other! That pic i took was GREAT! So then he comes back and asks me and i'm like nah i'm alright,lol. Then asks tasha and she was like idk how,lol! Then he asked erica's sisters friend, she says yes. But like when he walked away he smelled SOOOO BAD! So it was a slow song and i asked tasha if she would slow dance with me and then like we told erica to join so it was all 3 of us. So cute! Then me and erica spot this FIONE ASS GUY! he looked straight up Austrailian and like 10 yrs older than us,lol. So like while were dancin we LOST HIM! So after the song we were walkin around lookin for him. Then another song comes on and me and erica start dancin and tasha goes to sit down. So we find him again tryin to get his attention and stuff. So then another slow song comes on and we dance 2gethere. I swear if we looked of age we looked like we were straight up DRUNK! but hey thats how me and my friends are were high off life. Alcohol is great but we dont' always need it,lol. So that was pretty much it, me and tasha left and i took the wrong exit to get on the highway. But we get home, and i'm tired! Go to bed....And that was pretty much the end of my weekend. Untill some more interesting, crazy stuff.....
Your one and Only,
Sam
So then the next day i knew i had to wake up kinda early to get ready for Erica's parents Aniversary party. Woke up did like 3 loads of laundry and watched television. Vaccumed and then got in the shower and straigtend my hair. Man do i HATE my hair! It's soooo much work! I mean like blow dry it, and then straighten it....You have no idea. After all that i was gonna take a nap but i didn't have enough time. So i basically got dressed and talked to tasha for a lil even tho i was bout to see her in a hour or so. BUT THEN!! this is really what started my night on the right foot. So my lil bro Gus calls me and was like so guess who i juss got off the phone with? I'm like idk so he goes that girl. I"m like O SHIT! lol. So he's tellin me all this shit that went down and how he ended hangin up on the girl. I'm like O DAYUM! I LOVE KARMA! I mean for all yall that read these and you wanna find out more about wat i'm talkin bout juss pop up and ask. But fa real...i kno her ass is probably thinking i'm behind all of this shit, but shit it's all KARMA BABY!!! i feel soo sry for really REALLY nieve people. BUT NE WHO! So after gettin off the phone with him i went to tasha's house early cause she didn't kno what to wear...We left and i was on my way down in the city of St. Louis. MAN! i finally found where that whole Hispanic festival was at. I knew it was on Cherokee but i didn't kno it was in South City. And OOOO WEEE! i saw this really cute hispanic cross the street. I"m like DAYUM!!! Tasha was like you shoulda walked into the lil hispanic grocery store. I really should've but man this year i'm goin with gus to that lil festival thingy. So were at the Ballroom place thingy for the party and man did i have a good time! After Erica's parents finally arived everyone started to dance more. Even all 3 of us did,lol. It was the electric slide then the macarina. Then i was hella hott and tired i took a break and her and tasha did the Cha Cha slide. So it was all fun. What really made my night is that this HUGE guy comes up to erica and asks to dance with her and like he's really wierd right? And like i thought it was HILARIOUS! cause like their slow dancing with each other! That pic i took was GREAT! So then he comes back and asks me and i'm like nah i'm alright,lol. Then asks tasha and she was like idk how,lol! Then he asked erica's sisters friend, she says yes. But like when he walked away he smelled SOOOO BAD! So it was a slow song and i asked tasha if she would slow dance with me and then like we told erica to join so it was all 3 of us. So cute! Then me and erica spot this FIONE ASS GUY! he looked straight up Austrailian and like 10 yrs older than us,lol. So like while were dancin we LOST HIM! So after the song we were walkin around lookin for him. Then another song comes on and me and erica start dancin and tasha goes to sit down. So we find him again tryin to get his attention and stuff. So then another slow song comes on and we dance 2gethere. I swear if we looked of age we looked like we were straight up DRUNK! but hey thats how me and my friends are were high off life. Alcohol is great but we dont' always need it,lol. So that was pretty much it, me and tasha left and i took the wrong exit to get on the highway. But we get home, and i'm tired! Go to bed....And that was pretty much the end of my weekend. Untill some more interesting, crazy stuff.....
Your one and Only,
Sam
Thursday, March 09, 2006
Would you like a survey?
Okay so pretty much all the stuff goin on...I don't have time to type all down. So i decided just to post this survey. Enjoy!lol
1. Give a name for this survey: bull shit,lol
2. Name?: Sam
3. Date of birth?: 7/30
4. Sex?: Female.
5. Height?: 5'6 and a half,lol
6. Eye color?: shit brown!
7. Hair color?: auburn brown
8. Location?: the comp. room
9. Where were you born?: uhhh Barnes Jewish Hospital
10.Are you a virgin?: sadly no
11. Do you have a crush on someone?: not at the moment and not for a while
12. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?:noo
13. How long have you been together?: too bad i don't have one smart ass! these survey's kill me!
14. What are you wearing right now?: jeans, slippers, t-shirt and my fav. robe
15. Would you have sex before marriage?: too late...already did
16. Have you ever had a crush on one of your teachers?:ewie...to me that is sooo freaky!
17. Do you smoke?: HELL NO!
18. Do you drink?: yes...who dosn't?lol
19. Are you ghetto?: i'm mixed...i'ma leave it at that,lol
20. Are you a player?: hell no....i kno too much about being played. So i never had the bitchyness to do it 2 some1 else, cause i kno how it feels and it SUCKS!
21. What are your favourite colours?:pink,blue and black
22. What is your favourite animal?: hmmmm i really like dolphins
23. Do you have any birthmarks?: ya on my tummy
24. Have you ever gotten beat up?: fuck no!
25. Who is your best friend?: Erica and Tasha
26. Have you ever beaten someone up?: no...i really get them to try and fight me...but there's a lot of pussy's at my school.
27. Have you ever been slapped?:yea
28. Do you go online a lot?: not as much as i used 2
29. Are you shy or outgoing?: outgoing to the 10th degree!
30. Do you shower?: whats a shower?....JK duh i do!
31. Do you hate school?: i don't HATE it...it's alright...if your asking if i can't wait to Graduate...HELL YA!
32. Do you have a social life?: o yes!
33. How easily do you trust people?: depends...
34. Have you ever lied to your best friends?:not that i can think of
35. Do you have a secret people would be surprised knowing?: maybe...
37. Do you like to dance?: HECK YESSSSS
38. Have you ever been out of state?:yea
39. Do you like to travel?: i LOVE IT! i wish i could do it more often
40. Have you ever been suspended from school?:no...my school is too soft
41. Do you want to get out of your hometown?: HELL YA!
42. Are you spoiled?: extremely...only in the way of getting what i want.
43. Are you a brat?: i can be
44. Have you ever been dumped?: plenty...i'm tellin ya i've been threw a lot!
45. What's your favorite drink?: hmmmm ne kind of juice
46. Do you like Snapple?: sure...
47. Do you drink a lot of water?: i drink enough...
48. What toothpaste do you use?: crest
49. Cellphone or pager?: cell...c'mon! this is 2006....if you gotta pager, KILL IT!
50. Do you have a curfew?: yes...sadly
51. Who do you look up to?: really ne one who really tries to do something with their life ya kno? My mommy is a good example
52. Are you a role model?:i thought...but now i feel like i failed
53. What name brand do you wear the most?: OLD NAVY!!!!!
54. What kind of jewelry do you wear?: mostly earings
55. What do you have pierced?:ears and soon it will be my nose,lol
56. What do you want pierced? nose!
57. Do you like getting your picture taken?: at times...
58. Do you have a tan?: NOT NO MORE!...my white ass! i can't wait till summer!
59. Do you get annoyed easily?: depends
60. Have you ever started a rumour?: lol ya...it was about myself though...man people are dumb!
61. Do you have your own phone/phone line?: does my celly count?
62. Do you have your own pool?: we need to with our big ass back yard! it's like a field!
63. Do you have any siblings?: 2 older half sisters
64. Do you prefer boxers or briefs?: boxers
65. Have you ever been played?: OMG! too many times...trust you DON"T want to be and live what i had to go threw
66. Have you ever played someone?: NEVER...i don't want to put some1 where i've been b4
67. Do you get along with your parents?: just my mom...me and dad have gotten better but he can iritate me so much!
68. How do you vent your anger?: cry, tear shit up, i asked for a punching bag for x-mas but i never got it
69. Have you ever run away?: LMAO! ya plenty of times when i was younger. It would last like a block up the street then i would come back,LOL
70. Have you ever been fired from a job?: nope...I QUIT!
71. Do you even have a job?: no but i'm workin really hard to get one
72. Do you daydream a lot?: yea
73. Do you have a lot of exes?: is 3-4 a lot?....and what i can't stand i juss want one relationship when it's over that i can be friends with them in the end. BUT Nooo000ooo they gotta be dicks and cheat and use me. Lil fuckers!
74. Do you talk constantly?: it depends on my mood...sometimes i juss talk and talk and other times i'm just there to listen fa real.
75. What do you want a tattoo of?: see thats the thing i really want one after i turn the big 18 but see i want one thats meaningful and i dont' kno yet....so aventually i'ma get one!
76. What do you have a tattoo of?: isnt that the same question
77. What are your favorite flowers?: roses and hibiscus!
78. What does your ex look like?: DAMN! must we go there...okay bout 2 inches taller than me, mexican as my lil bro would say he look like a dog. Really i do'tn kno wat was wrong with me but he isn't that ugly i mean it's just his nose...it's just not a mexican nose i guess...made him look wierd. But lets leave it at that cause right now if he was here i would seriuosly kill him!
79. What does your most recent crush look like?: i mean i really dont' have one....i keep having dreams with this great guy...i guess the guy i'll have one day so i guess thats my recent crush. Damn and he look HELLA FINE!
80. When was the last time you got it a fight?: wasnt there a question like this b4?
81. Are you rude?: i can be, when people piss me off!
82. What was the last compliment you received?: i'm such a good friend
83. Is your bellybutton an innie or outie?: innie
84. What is your heritage?: damn! okay here we go! black, indian, german, mexican/spainaird(hard to explain), irish and hawaiian...>WHEW!
85. What does your hair look like right now?: in a pony tail and curly as hell!
86. Could you ever be a vegetarian?: i really could i just can't give up chicken...i cant. I already do'nt eat beef so hey!
87. When was your last heartbreak?: hmmm lets see...ABOUT 3 MONTHS AGO! damn my new year started off like hell!
88. Describe your looks: if you kno me you kno how i look....DUH!
89. If you had to completely dye your hair, what colour would it be?: idk...i kinda liked my hair black when i dyed it....but i wanna try a diff. kind of red again...
90. Would you ever date someone younger than you?: uhhh i think NOT!
91. Would you ever date someone older than you?: ya...all the time...lets look at the last one...ASS HOLE!
92. When was the last time you were drunk?: never gotten drunk...i guess it takes a lot for me
93. When was the last time you went out on a date?: uhhh lets see the beg. of Decimber
94. Have you ever had an eating disorder?: nooo
95. Do you have one now?: nooo.
96. How many rings until you answer the phone?:whenever i get to it
97. Do you look more like your mother or your father?:my mother
98. Do you cry a lot?: ya...i'm kinda emotional...if it's a serious situation i can't cry in front of people, when i get by myself it's like a river is being built!
99. Do you ever cry to get your way?: no
100. If you had to amputate one limb, what would it be?: uhhhh my left arm
101. What phrase do you use most on the phone?:shhiiiiitttt
102. Are you the romantic type?:i wasn't then i was...then now i realize that shit ain't my job!
103. Have you ever been cought by the cops?: no
104. What do you like most about your body?: my lips
105. And least?: my fat ness,lol
106. When was the last time you threw up?: ewie it was when all this drama was goin on and i found out all about it and i was crying real hard and i had to pull over and then i threw up! SO NASTY! i hate it!
107. In the opposite (same)sex, do you prefer blonde or brunettes?: brunettes
108. What do the shoes you wore last look like?: birks
109. Do you ever wear shirts that show your belly?: hell naw!
110. What about cleavage?: hehe maybe...
111. Is your best friend a virgin?: one is, ones not
112. Have you ever messed someone up?: like how?
113. Have you ever been messed up?: NO!
114. What colour are your toenails now?: like burgandy
115. What theme does your room have?: uhhhhh....teenager with all that shit on the floor,lol
116. What size shoe do you wear?: 10
117. What jewelry are you wearing now?: ear rings
118. What is your screen name?:
119. Would you pick a wedgie in public?: LMAO! ya i did like 3 weeks ago! so fun!
120. How are you feeling right now?: tired and frustrated!
121. When was the last time you were at a party?: i think it was gus's quince
122. Have you ever given a lap dance?: way back in those wild days...ya kno when ur still tryin to grow up and discover who you are...BUT hey who says i won't do it again,lol
123. What do you sleep in?: winter;underwear and t-shirt...summer;usually in the nude,lol i take after my daddy!
124. Has there ever been a rumour spread about it?: uhhh no
125. What is one of your good qualities?: how people can tell me ne thing cause i listen really well and i don't go around tellin everyone
126. Bad qualities?: how i can get attitudes and not even notice
127. Would you marry for money?: HELL NO!
128. What do you drive?: Nissan Altima BABY! DIEGO
129. Have you ever hooked up with someone?: uhhhhh depending on wat you mean...
130. Are you more of a mama's or a daddy's child?: both
131. When was the last time you cried in school?:some movie we watched...dn't remember when tho
1. Give a name for this survey: bull shit,lol
2. Name?: Sam
3. Date of birth?: 7/30
4. Sex?: Female.
5. Height?: 5'6 and a half,lol
6. Eye color?: shit brown!
7. Hair color?: auburn brown
8. Location?: the comp. room
9. Where were you born?: uhhh Barnes Jewish Hospital
10.Are you a virgin?: sadly no
11. Do you have a crush on someone?: not at the moment and not for a while
12. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?:noo
13. How long have you been together?: too bad i don't have one smart ass! these survey's kill me!
14. What are you wearing right now?: jeans, slippers, t-shirt and my fav. robe
15. Would you have sex before marriage?: too late...already did
16. Have you ever had a crush on one of your teachers?:ewie...to me that is sooo freaky!
17. Do you smoke?: HELL NO!
18. Do you drink?: yes...who dosn't?lol
19. Are you ghetto?: i'm mixed...i'ma leave it at that,lol
20. Are you a player?: hell no....i kno too much about being played. So i never had the bitchyness to do it 2 some1 else, cause i kno how it feels and it SUCKS!
21. What are your favourite colours?:pink,blue and black
22. What is your favourite animal?: hmmmm i really like dolphins
23. Do you have any birthmarks?: ya on my tummy
24. Have you ever gotten beat up?: fuck no!
25. Who is your best friend?: Erica and Tasha
26. Have you ever beaten someone up?: no...i really get them to try and fight me...but there's a lot of pussy's at my school.
27. Have you ever been slapped?:yea
28. Do you go online a lot?: not as much as i used 2
29. Are you shy or outgoing?: outgoing to the 10th degree!
30. Do you shower?: whats a shower?....JK duh i do!
31. Do you hate school?: i don't HATE it...it's alright...if your asking if i can't wait to Graduate...HELL YA!
32. Do you have a social life?: o yes!
33. How easily do you trust people?: depends...
34. Have you ever lied to your best friends?:not that i can think of
35. Do you have a secret people would be surprised knowing?: maybe...
37. Do you like to dance?: HECK YESSSSS
38. Have you ever been out of state?:yea
39. Do you like to travel?: i LOVE IT! i wish i could do it more often
40. Have you ever been suspended from school?:no...my school is too soft
41. Do you want to get out of your hometown?: HELL YA!
42. Are you spoiled?: extremely...only in the way of getting what i want.
43. Are you a brat?: i can be
44. Have you ever been dumped?: plenty...i'm tellin ya i've been threw a lot!
45. What's your favorite drink?: hmmmm ne kind of juice
46. Do you like Snapple?: sure...
47. Do you drink a lot of water?: i drink enough...
48. What toothpaste do you use?: crest
49. Cellphone or pager?: cell...c'mon! this is 2006....if you gotta pager, KILL IT!
50. Do you have a curfew?: yes...sadly
51. Who do you look up to?: really ne one who really tries to do something with their life ya kno? My mommy is a good example
52. Are you a role model?:i thought...but now i feel like i failed
53. What name brand do you wear the most?: OLD NAVY!!!!!
54. What kind of jewelry do you wear?: mostly earings
55. What do you have pierced?:ears and soon it will be my nose,lol
56. What do you want pierced? nose!
57. Do you like getting your picture taken?: at times...
58. Do you have a tan?: NOT NO MORE!...my white ass! i can't wait till summer!
59. Do you get annoyed easily?: depends
60. Have you ever started a rumour?: lol ya...it was about myself though...man people are dumb!
61. Do you have your own phone/phone line?: does my celly count?
62. Do you have your own pool?: we need to with our big ass back yard! it's like a field!
63. Do you have any siblings?: 2 older half sisters
64. Do you prefer boxers or briefs?: boxers
65. Have you ever been played?: OMG! too many times...trust you DON"T want to be and live what i had to go threw
66. Have you ever played someone?: NEVER...i don't want to put some1 where i've been b4
67. Do you get along with your parents?: just my mom...me and dad have gotten better but he can iritate me so much!
68. How do you vent your anger?: cry, tear shit up, i asked for a punching bag for x-mas but i never got it
69. Have you ever run away?: LMAO! ya plenty of times when i was younger. It would last like a block up the street then i would come back,LOL
70. Have you ever been fired from a job?: nope...I QUIT!
71. Do you even have a job?: no but i'm workin really hard to get one
72. Do you daydream a lot?: yea
73. Do you have a lot of exes?: is 3-4 a lot?....and what i can't stand i juss want one relationship when it's over that i can be friends with them in the end. BUT Nooo000ooo they gotta be dicks and cheat and use me. Lil fuckers!
74. Do you talk constantly?: it depends on my mood...sometimes i juss talk and talk and other times i'm just there to listen fa real.
75. What do you want a tattoo of?: see thats the thing i really want one after i turn the big 18 but see i want one thats meaningful and i dont' kno yet....so aventually i'ma get one!
76. What do you have a tattoo of?: isnt that the same question
77. What are your favorite flowers?: roses and hibiscus!
78. What does your ex look like?: DAMN! must we go there...okay bout 2 inches taller than me, mexican as my lil bro would say he look like a dog. Really i do'tn kno wat was wrong with me but he isn't that ugly i mean it's just his nose...it's just not a mexican nose i guess...made him look wierd. But lets leave it at that cause right now if he was here i would seriuosly kill him!
79. What does your most recent crush look like?: i mean i really dont' have one....i keep having dreams with this great guy...i guess the guy i'll have one day so i guess thats my recent crush. Damn and he look HELLA FINE!
80. When was the last time you got it a fight?: wasnt there a question like this b4?
81. Are you rude?: i can be, when people piss me off!
82. What was the last compliment you received?: i'm such a good friend
83. Is your bellybutton an innie or outie?: innie
84. What is your heritage?: damn! okay here we go! black, indian, german, mexican/spainaird(hard to explain), irish and hawaiian...>WHEW!
85. What does your hair look like right now?: in a pony tail and curly as hell!
86. Could you ever be a vegetarian?: i really could i just can't give up chicken...i cant. I already do'nt eat beef so hey!
87. When was your last heartbreak?: hmmm lets see...ABOUT 3 MONTHS AGO! damn my new year started off like hell!
88. Describe your looks: if you kno me you kno how i look....DUH!
89. If you had to completely dye your hair, what colour would it be?: idk...i kinda liked my hair black when i dyed it....but i wanna try a diff. kind of red again...
90. Would you ever date someone younger than you?: uhhh i think NOT!
91. Would you ever date someone older than you?: ya...all the time...lets look at the last one...ASS HOLE!
92. When was the last time you were drunk?: never gotten drunk...i guess it takes a lot for me
93. When was the last time you went out on a date?: uhhh lets see the beg. of Decimber
94. Have you ever had an eating disorder?: nooo
95. Do you have one now?: nooo.
96. How many rings until you answer the phone?:whenever i get to it
97. Do you look more like your mother or your father?:my mother
98. Do you cry a lot?: ya...i'm kinda emotional...if it's a serious situation i can't cry in front of people, when i get by myself it's like a river is being built!
99. Do you ever cry to get your way?: no
100. If you had to amputate one limb, what would it be?: uhhhh my left arm
101. What phrase do you use most on the phone?:shhiiiiitttt
102. Are you the romantic type?:i wasn't then i was...then now i realize that shit ain't my job!
103. Have you ever been cought by the cops?: no
104. What do you like most about your body?: my lips
105. And least?: my fat ness,lol
106. When was the last time you threw up?: ewie it was when all this drama was goin on and i found out all about it and i was crying real hard and i had to pull over and then i threw up! SO NASTY! i hate it!
107. In the opposite (same)sex, do you prefer blonde or brunettes?: brunettes
108. What do the shoes you wore last look like?: birks
109. Do you ever wear shirts that show your belly?: hell naw!
110. What about cleavage?: hehe maybe...
111. Is your best friend a virgin?: one is, ones not
112. Have you ever messed someone up?: like how?
113. Have you ever been messed up?: NO!
114. What colour are your toenails now?: like burgandy
115. What theme does your room have?: uhhhhh....teenager with all that shit on the floor,lol
116. What size shoe do you wear?: 10
117. What jewelry are you wearing now?: ear rings
118. What is your screen name?:
119. Would you pick a wedgie in public?: LMAO! ya i did like 3 weeks ago! so fun!
120. How are you feeling right now?: tired and frustrated!
121. When was the last time you were at a party?: i think it was gus's quince
122. Have you ever given a lap dance?: way back in those wild days...ya kno when ur still tryin to grow up and discover who you are...BUT hey who says i won't do it again,lol
123. What do you sleep in?: winter;underwear and t-shirt...summer;usually in the nude,lol i take after my daddy!
124. Has there ever been a rumour spread about it?: uhhh no
125. What is one of your good qualities?: how people can tell me ne thing cause i listen really well and i don't go around tellin everyone
126. Bad qualities?: how i can get attitudes and not even notice
127. Would you marry for money?: HELL NO!
128. What do you drive?: Nissan Altima BABY! DIEGO
129. Have you ever hooked up with someone?: uhhhhh depending on wat you mean...
130. Are you more of a mama's or a daddy's child?: both
131. When was the last time you cried in school?:some movie we watched...dn't remember when tho
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
Now isn't this some crap!
Okay so tell me why i havn't had the internet ever since Friday and i'm getting it back 2day! Ain't that some crap. Whats even worse is NO television till Friday, ain't that some BULL SHIT! I mean wat the hell! We juss got the damn dish on friday and already messin up on MONDAY! When it comes to television company's i seriously juss wanna shoot all of them!
So i havn't been on here since friday and nothing new i must say. I didn't go ne where all weekend cause i had the bad case of the flu wednesday night and juss sounded terrible after the bad stuff was over with. So my parents basically put me on LOCK DOWN! Hmmm o well. May sound wierd but i need a break of goin out. Sometimes i juss like to chyll and i get tired of drivin every where! So Sunday i had to do this Banquet thing for LAASA(Ladue African American Student Aliance) a organization/club thing at my school. And i'm a Junior Officer so i had to be there. It was okay i guess. That food was HELLA nasty! White people should deffinately not try and make soul food. So that was bout it
So monday nothing interesting happend that was my first day back. So i was in a way excited. Being cut off from the world was no fun. So then tuesday was a okay day. Really 2day wednesday was a good day cause I GAVE BLOOD! AND MISSED MOST OF CHEMISTRY! YES!!!!!!lol. And then today i finally i get the internet back! O MAN! did i catch up on some drama. Now isn't that sad that i gotta catch up on my drama on the f-in internet?!?! How dumb is that?! All i gotta say is what she's doin becca is not suprising me. Give it time and maybe she won't be so dumb ne more. Hopefully she will....if she dosn't drop out. What can i say their's always one bad apple in the family. And on my momma side thats her. So on that note i'ma go cause i'm talkin to the lil bro( Carmen he's juss a good friend who seem like a lil bro cause he get on my nerve a lot,lol!). Untill somethin interesting happens.....
Your one and ONLY,
Sam
So i havn't been on here since friday and nothing new i must say. I didn't go ne where all weekend cause i had the bad case of the flu wednesday night and juss sounded terrible after the bad stuff was over with. So my parents basically put me on LOCK DOWN! Hmmm o well. May sound wierd but i need a break of goin out. Sometimes i juss like to chyll and i get tired of drivin every where! So Sunday i had to do this Banquet thing for LAASA(Ladue African American Student Aliance) a organization/club thing at my school. And i'm a Junior Officer so i had to be there. It was okay i guess. That food was HELLA nasty! White people should deffinately not try and make soul food. So that was bout it
So monday nothing interesting happend that was my first day back. So i was in a way excited. Being cut off from the world was no fun. So then tuesday was a okay day. Really 2day wednesday was a good day cause I GAVE BLOOD! AND MISSED MOST OF CHEMISTRY! YES!!!!!!lol. And then today i finally i get the internet back! O MAN! did i catch up on some drama. Now isn't that sad that i gotta catch up on my drama on the f-in internet?!?! How dumb is that?! All i gotta say is what she's doin becca is not suprising me. Give it time and maybe she won't be so dumb ne more. Hopefully she will....if she dosn't drop out. What can i say their's always one bad apple in the family. And on my momma side thats her. So on that note i'ma go cause i'm talkin to the lil bro( Carmen he's juss a good friend who seem like a lil bro cause he get on my nerve a lot,lol!). Untill somethin interesting happens.....
Your one and ONLY,
Sam
Thursday, March 02, 2006
Sooo Sick!
Okay you could say the last 2 days have been crapy as hell! I started getting sick like tuesday with juss having a bad cough, like really bad and along with my voice goin away! UGH! i hate this and along with that had a fever of 101.7 last night but it broke but damn i sitll got body aches and i still gotta headache outta this world! The worst thing is that my chest is starting to hurt when i breath. So my mami is hoppin i don't have like Pnemonia or ne thing. Shit i'm hoppin 2! On the other hand....
I'm gettin soo sick of school!!! Like ya i can't wait till summer but then i juss can't wait till is ALLL over! Ya kno?! GRADUATING! I'm hoping that next year as a SENIOR will go as fast as my Junior year has. But at the same time i'm scared to move into that next step into adulthood. BUT this summer is gonna be a blast! So let me give you the intenerary(sp?). Okay so school is out June 2nd, that night we go to Erica's Lake House for her annual end of the school year party and i guess in also celebration of being SENIORS!lol...being over there is always a WILD time, let me tell ya! WHEW! So then the 10th i have to take my 2nd act's (yuck!). And after that the 11th i'm on my way down to FLORIDA with Tasha and her Parents. Isn't that nice of her to invite me? Like i've been there b4 but that was a good 10 yrs ago! And bein 17 me and tasha r gonna have fun! So then after florida i HAVE to go to Summer School for this computer class cause if samantha don't take it, guess what? Samantha ain't GRADUATING! But it will be fun i always here summer school is fun so ya... Then hopefully havin a job and all that jazz. And then me and erica decided we HAVE to go to 6 flags this summer. I hvn't been ever since 8th grade!!! HOW SAD! Okay so i'm sure yall know i'ma SUMMER BABY!!!! and so is Tasha....So me and her decided to throw one BIG party considering we have the SAME b-day! O YA! PARRRTAAAYYY!!!!! THE BIG 1-8! YES! Along with turnin 18 Samantha is getting her NOSE PIERCED! Ya i threw a poll on my buddyprofile and 2 voted to get both my nose pierced and a tattoo....I think i'ma wait for the tattoo cause as of right now i don't kno what i want. I want something thoughtful that i won't mind havin for the rest of my life ya kno? So then i'm gettin my FULL license, NO RESTRICTIONS BABY!!!! YES! hehe....Excited for the Summer!
And then there's college, that i really have to take into consideration. I mean one of the reasons i'm having this blog is so i can WRITE and get me ready for this college essay i have to do! Now i still want to go into Fashion Design as my major and bussiness as my minor. But then in my back of my head i still LOVE to cook ya kno? So i'm also considering going to culinary school after Fashion Design school, so that way i'll kno if i want to still or not. Even as it may, i havn't changed my major but i have changed schools like people change their draws. Like way back when i wanted to go to Fashion Design School in California. Then i realized how far away i'd be and how expensive Cali can be! Then i was stuck on Georgia for a good while. They have a really good art school. But then i realized that i don't want to go to a Design or Art school because i want to minor in business. So while i was goin out with that DICK DICK DICK head i was on Texas for a while. LMAO! turned out that only lasted for about hmmmm lets see 5 or 6 months! HAHA! Changed my mind cause 1. That school has no info on at all! so it's probably no betta then FLO. 2. I want to be as far as possible away from him! now don't think he's controling me HELL NO! if that was truly a good school (University of North Texas, lol see you havnt even hurd of it!) I WOULD be going to it! 3. My counselour dosn't want me to go there and she was really wanting me to go to the one in Florida cause she says it's a good school (Lynn University). 4. Although it may be HELLAZ expensive my mom brought a point sayin that who knows wat kind of scholarships i might get and then theirs aid and stuff. 5. This place is in Boca Raton, FL. Do you have ne idea where that at? THE BEACH! right on the coast! and like maybe a 1 hr or so drive to MIAMI!!! do you have ne idea how much fun i'm goin to have??!? Ya so it's far away in like 2 ways it's good and 1 way bad. One gettin away from my dad, even tho i will miss him i need REALLy small doseges for him. Two getting away from the LOVELY couple! LMAO!. And the downfall i'm really gonna miss my Mommy! But trust i gotta have a celly cause i ai'nt rackin up on bills in that dorm callin mommy all the time...GONNA BE USIN THE CELL! oooo and i for got somethin....ALLLL those damn sexy ass CUBANS! WHEW! Ya can't be mad at me for lovin the hispanics! Cause ya kno in the end their gonna be one sexy ass baby! LMAO!
Okay so ya im tired or i juss need to take some MEDS and i need to eat somethin, then the shower cause i gotta Doc apt at 2 to see wats wrong with me. So i'll be back probably later on 2night. Writting you about somethin,lol. Till then...
Ya one and Only!
Sammy D!~MUAH~
I'm gettin soo sick of school!!! Like ya i can't wait till summer but then i juss can't wait till is ALLL over! Ya kno?! GRADUATING! I'm hoping that next year as a SENIOR will go as fast as my Junior year has. But at the same time i'm scared to move into that next step into adulthood. BUT this summer is gonna be a blast! So let me give you the intenerary(sp?). Okay so school is out June 2nd, that night we go to Erica's Lake House for her annual end of the school year party and i guess in also celebration of being SENIORS!lol...being over there is always a WILD time, let me tell ya! WHEW! So then the 10th i have to take my 2nd act's (yuck!). And after that the 11th i'm on my way down to FLORIDA with Tasha and her Parents. Isn't that nice of her to invite me? Like i've been there b4 but that was a good 10 yrs ago! And bein 17 me and tasha r gonna have fun! So then after florida i HAVE to go to Summer School for this computer class cause if samantha don't take it, guess what? Samantha ain't GRADUATING! But it will be fun i always here summer school is fun so ya... Then hopefully havin a job and all that jazz. And then me and erica decided we HAVE to go to 6 flags this summer. I hvn't been ever since 8th grade!!! HOW SAD! Okay so i'm sure yall know i'ma SUMMER BABY!!!! and so is Tasha....So me and her decided to throw one BIG party considering we have the SAME b-day! O YA! PARRRTAAAYYY!!!!! THE BIG 1-8! YES! Along with turnin 18 Samantha is getting her NOSE PIERCED! Ya i threw a poll on my buddyprofile and 2 voted to get both my nose pierced and a tattoo....I think i'ma wait for the tattoo cause as of right now i don't kno what i want. I want something thoughtful that i won't mind havin for the rest of my life ya kno? So then i'm gettin my FULL license, NO RESTRICTIONS BABY!!!! YES! hehe....Excited for the Summer!
And then there's college, that i really have to take into consideration. I mean one of the reasons i'm having this blog is so i can WRITE and get me ready for this college essay i have to do! Now i still want to go into Fashion Design as my major and bussiness as my minor. But then in my back of my head i still LOVE to cook ya kno? So i'm also considering going to culinary school after Fashion Design school, so that way i'll kno if i want to still or not. Even as it may, i havn't changed my major but i have changed schools like people change their draws. Like way back when i wanted to go to Fashion Design School in California. Then i realized how far away i'd be and how expensive Cali can be! Then i was stuck on Georgia for a good while. They have a really good art school. But then i realized that i don't want to go to a Design or Art school because i want to minor in business. So while i was goin out with that DICK DICK DICK head i was on Texas for a while. LMAO! turned out that only lasted for about hmmmm lets see 5 or 6 months! HAHA! Changed my mind cause 1. That school has no info on at all! so it's probably no betta then FLO. 2. I want to be as far as possible away from him! now don't think he's controling me HELL NO! if that was truly a good school (University of North Texas, lol see you havnt even hurd of it!) I WOULD be going to it! 3. My counselour dosn't want me to go there and she was really wanting me to go to the one in Florida cause she says it's a good school (Lynn University). 4. Although it may be HELLAZ expensive my mom brought a point sayin that who knows wat kind of scholarships i might get and then theirs aid and stuff. 5. This place is in Boca Raton, FL. Do you have ne idea where that at? THE BEACH! right on the coast! and like maybe a 1 hr or so drive to MIAMI!!! do you have ne idea how much fun i'm goin to have??!? Ya so it's far away in like 2 ways it's good and 1 way bad. One gettin away from my dad, even tho i will miss him i need REALLy small doseges for him. Two getting away from the LOVELY couple! LMAO!. And the downfall i'm really gonna miss my Mommy! But trust i gotta have a celly cause i ai'nt rackin up on bills in that dorm callin mommy all the time...GONNA BE USIN THE CELL! oooo and i for got somethin....ALLLL those damn sexy ass CUBANS! WHEW! Ya can't be mad at me for lovin the hispanics! Cause ya kno in the end their gonna be one sexy ass baby! LMAO!
Okay so ya im tired or i juss need to take some MEDS and i need to eat somethin, then the shower cause i gotta Doc apt at 2 to see wats wrong with me. So i'll be back probably later on 2night. Writting you about somethin,lol. Till then...
Ya one and Only!
Sammy D!~MUAH~
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