WOW!!!

LO SIENTO!! (i'm sorry!) I havn't wrote in this thing in ages! Either i'm just too busy, don't feel like it, or w/e the reason may be. TRUST! from the last entry there is SOOOO much that has been happening!!! So where i left you off at was those damn ACT's...damn it! I got the same damn grade i got the 1st time i took it. It's really not fare for me cause i've ALWAYS been a bad test taker. I mean when that man called 5 mins. i swear i jumped every single time. So i'm hopin the next time,which i think is in OCT., i do better,lol. OOOO this time i took the writting portion....I KILLED IT! their comments wrote "Your essay adequately supported general statements with specific reasons, examples, and details." So for me i thought it was good....now if i could only remember what i had to write about...DAMN IT!

So i should probably talk about this so called "cousin" of mine. So that Wednesday i went to the park to talk things out with her. At first i'm listening seeing how "sorry" she felt and w/e. And i'm like okay well she said sorry so we gettin somewhere. My main goal was tryin to be open minded, forgiving, and not the Mad black woman (taken advise from the big sis). So i was tellin her that i understand u feel sorry and regret...but things arn't going to go back to the ways that it was b4. I made it clear to her about that. And i also told her that i can't see myself going places with her and talkin on the phone for over 4 hrs....untill they break up. Now i didn't tell her to break up...just in a secretive way i guess,lol. But it's true....like how the hell am i gonna be able to try and make things right with you and give you your second chance if you still goin out with that low life bum ass MF'er who calls himself a man. Thats a slap in my face sayin that he is more important than me and he shouldn't cause i'm her damn family!....So she starts tellin me how she can't see herself wit danny no more cause they argue everyday and shit. THEN! she tell me how he told her to choose between him and her friends/family. I"M LIKE NO THE HELL HE DIDN"T!....O by the way while i was there gus(lil bro) wanted to be there to make sure i wouldn't beat her ass.....so after we talked we all played v-ball and ya...

So like a week or two after that she tells me that they broke up. And she sittin there on AIM expectin me to be all nice to her about it and be there for her for it....WHY THE HELL WOULD I DO THAT! I mean yes back then when she would break up with the guy i was there for her no doubt! ....but this is completely different. And then she kinda pisses me off some more talkin bout "i know it's not ur fault but like ever since all this shit happend gus dosn't want to hang out with me ne more." And i just sit there and say okay...and se was like well thats somthing that i guess i should talk to him about. So then the weekend b4 the 4th weekend she invites me to go to this hispanic festival....i'm like this will be soo awkward but hey! gotta start somewhere right? We go have a good time and such. The day after i invite her to go to my family's big fish fry thing we was havin the day of the 4th. But like after a week i dont' hear a damn word from her, never see her online, and she no longer had me as a friend on myspace. I'm like well this is some odd shit.

SO! i do my experimenting....and i go on her cousins page and she's left her some comment thingys. One in praticular says o can i go out with you kno who tonight instead of you cause when we get back he gonna be gone and i'ma miss him. I'm like this girl think she slick! After all this shit has gone down she dont think no1 is gonna kno who she talkin bout! So then i got on the dick heads page and she writtin him shit sayin she miss him and w/e....So i tell gus and he's all like hell naw! and he calls her and either she lies or dosn't answer his questions......and so basically this longates(sp?)...and on her blog she talkin bout people bein in her buzziness and leave her alone and shit. (girl plez! if you didn't advertize you business like you WANT people to kno you wouldn't have to worry about it!) Gus sees it and he's like she betta not be talkin bout me! Calls her again and asks her ALLL questions that either you KNOW she's lieing about or just wont answer them. So he asks her why she hasn't talked to me....This bitch talkin bout i know things wont go back to being the same so i give up. Gus is like "hold up, your cousin has given you a second chance; she hasn't given up on you...but your given up on her!?" GO LIL BRO!!! He is soooo right....ofcourse she dosn't say ne thing. So she asks them if they gonna stay friends and he's like let me get back to you on that....and she's like i wanna kno now! This girl is buggin out fa real! Like you can tell that she is soooo afraid of loosing everyone so dear to her. She's one of them girls who feels she has to have a boy in her life....cause she says she can't live without him. SAD! O SO SAD! So i've deffinately given up on her since she has given up on me....i no longer claim her as my family because if she was my so called "family/cousin" they dont do shit like this to each other! So for a while now i've been wanting to beat the shit outta her and HIM! just to give her lil reality check. And i could careless if her daddy get mad at me cause i go off on him 2!

So ne ways!!....back to somethin good. For my birthday this year....the BIG 1-8!...i'm goin to Chi-Town for my b-day but also to check Dominican University...where i really want to go now! Cause i look back and see how home sick i used to be and realize i don't think i could do Florida and Georgia. I'm excited to turn this age because so much comes with it; Voting, Credit Cards, Full License, JOBS!!! Cause i am SOOO broke right now it's not even funny! If yall readin this and wonderin wat to get me for my b-day and thats MONEY! LOL!

I'm in summer school right now...(Last week, last say is the 21st!! MY SIS's B-day! wow i wonder how old she gonna be?!?! I think it's like 33 or 34)...This computer class that i HAVE to take or else i dont graduate. And thats something that hits me in the face everyday...i'm gonna be a senior this year...and then....i'm gone. It's just sooo unreal!

But i think i pretty much got all caught up with everything....i'ma try harder to write in this more often to keep yall posted on wats goin on....so untill something interesting

`Sammy!