Wierd Crazy day

Today wasn't too bad....Saturday i didn't practically nothin but go on a drive with Nina. She loves going on drives,lol. Sunday i cleaned house and got some sun. I'm starting to take after my grandmother...by turning red and then brown. Crazy huh? But hey! im lookin darker!YAY!!! So then me and tasha went to the loop. I almost cussed out this old man cause at first he was just starin hella hard at me and tasha and i'm like "uh oh tasha he want chu!" then this old man had the nerve to roll down his window and say somethin like we too loud....ASSHOLE! you in the loop you expect it to be quiet!? HELL NO! His ass betta be glad that light turned green i woulda went off on his ass. We were gonna go hang out with Gus but he had a lot 2 do 2day...i miss my lil bro, last time i saw him was like VOTF, which was like 3 weeks ago. I'll make it up there my 1st week outta school since i'ma be gone this weekend. So me and tasha just drove around the rest of the time made a fool outa of ourselves at Wal-Mart it was fun tho. Pretty much it...i'm goin to Columbia, MO 2morrow for some family picnic with people i dont kno except for my close cuzzins. This week is finals and i hope i do well....then friday i have a half day i get out at like 10:50, HECK YES! i'm hopin i have a interview comin up cause the assit. mang. seemed interested it's just the bitch...O WELL!! so this weekend comin up i'm goin to ericas for the weekend....gonna be crazy!!! u can never go in the country and not act wild! so thats bout it, until i think of somethin else or somethin else crazy happens.....

Love ya!
Sammy d!

School is ALMOST OUT!

So again i havn't gotten into the habbit of writting on here, sry. Well what can i say??? Nothing much is happening fa real. Me and my dad got into it, well to me we did cause he pissed me off. Gonna tell me i'm not goin to college cause he can't afford it..BULL SHIT! he thinks people pay up the 30,000 dollars up front all the time....BRRRNNTTT!!! WRONG! But ne ways he got me f'd up if he think i'm not goin to college and make somethin outta my life! PSH! And about cost thats what i've been thinkin bout and i've been kinda lookin for the college in Illinois b/c one it's cheaper than the one in FL. Two it's not soo far either...and i realize how much i'm going to miss everyone like; my mommy, my doggies, all my friends etc. So i can come back for whatever reason. It's also a lot cheaper to get an apartment their also cause i really dont' wanna work of room and board i'd rather just pay for the tuition ya kno? So idk i juss need to wait till i get some more Financial aid stuff and also getting accepted,lol. If i can do both i have NO IDEA! o jeez! all the decisions to make as a SENIOR!!!! WOOT WOOT! As far as this weekend i have no idea what i'm doin...i know monday i'm goin to columbia MO for dads aunt fish fry....but sat. and sunday dont' kno yet! Need to do some boi huntin! Gonna go chyll now....till some more stuff......

LOVE SAMMY D!!

Long time....no talk,lol

Damn i really need to write on here more often,lol. Well Since the last time i wrote on here it wasn't much; dad and school, O and me complaining lol. Well dad is doing great he got his stitches and staples out monday...so he was real excited about that. And now he's able to drive places now also...THANK GOD! cause i was getting tired of him bitchin at me for the way i drive. Wednesday at 2:20 i was considered..............A SENIOR WOOT WOOT!!! LOL! I was excited but i also cried cause i was a lot closer with these seniors then the ones graduating last year. I moved on tho. Damn you start so early in the process of being a senior 2! IT"S GREAT! I have about 2 weeks till school is out and i'm excited! YES!!! Sadly we had to move Erica's Party back about 3 weeks or so cause the lake is full yet. O well gives me longer to loose weight,lol. This past weekend was okay i guess. Friday i went with erica so she could get some wings and we had the most funniest waiter cause he was like russian or something. For the rest of the night we were gonna go to Jackies party which was planned badly! We arrived early no1 there so we had kim come and give us a key at 1st. I got to see my baby LU! (kims puppy,pitt) So we decided to bring her to the carnival. We got bored of being there so we went to Jackies party because people were finally there. That place was a HOTT mess! I didn't do too much drinking considering there was a lot already gone. So i had a whimpy as Seagrams and like a glop of kims Corona....1st time for the Corona it was alright. So then they all decided to go to some guys house in north county...i'm like fuck that i'm goin home i don't kno who his ass is. OOO and this sophmore that dosn't even go to our school ne more....started to fight Nick for like no reason....his ass lost,LOL! So i burned out and went home. Saturday i did nothin but run around with my mother. I got some new pastels tho! I saw becca at Target 2!!! it was soo funni cause i didn't realize her till she was like all up in my face!LMAO! Me and my mami also watched Date Movie...HILARIOUS!!! So thats pretty much i've cleaned today and acted my normal retarded self,lol. Now i'ma go try and make my legs not soo light....ttyl

PUPPIES!!!!

i really want one!...don't kno why, i'ma be gone next year, but i want one fa real as soon as i get a house....so like 7 years from now,lol....yall should buy me a puppy!!!
(puggle) beagle/pug! TOO CUTE!

labordor retriever..can never go wrong....how cute is that?!

Yorkie!!...i gotta have at least one rat dog in my life,lol. and how cute is she?!?!

Bulldog!..omg there so fat and cute, i really love bull dogs!


Bloodhound! i love them cause of thos floppy ears, so cute! and i just love ne hunting dogs howls,lol

long time....lots of stuff

so i think the last time i talked on here was about a good 2-3 weeks ago. Where i left off on a really bad note bout some1 who i try not to consider. So ever since then there have been happy moments and bad ones. School has been going okay, but i'm just really tired of it. 1st semester was a really easy one and i thought "What do they mean Junior year is your hardest year?" but 2nd semester is KILLING me! I"m dying to get to summer vacation cause i really need it. But i kno for the month that i have left it'll work out. Hmm...O also i tryed out for broadcasting the announcements on television back in April and well....Ya girl made it! O YA! You must be proud, yes i kno,lol. So next year as a senior i will be on television every other day saying announcements. Never saw myself doing it and it's not so much a big deal to some people but i just want to bring more fun to it cause people that do it now is just sooo boring ya kno? So off the school subject....About 2 weeks ago dad went into the hospital cause he was complaining about chest pains and such. His blood pressure was awfly high also. So it turned out that on of his arterys that they havn't worked on previously was 80% clogged. I honostly had no sympathy for him when he said he didn't want this to come out to be this way with getting another by-pass surgery done. I'm not saying i didnt care, OF COURSE I DID! If i didn't i wouldn't of chewed him out while he was there. Another thing that has been on my shoulders lately than besides school and college....my future. And i really want my dad there. I want him to make it to my graduation, my wedding and to be with his grandkids. Things that i kno he really wants to be apart of but in my eyes it dosnt seem like it for the past 3 years of smoking and then eating horrible on top of that. Situations such as these make me jelouse and pissed at my "siblings". Jelouse in a way that one of my sisters was able to get walked down the isle by her father and the other having the oppurtunity 2. Him being able to see their kids. Pissed in a way because they don't care about him. Non of them check up on him...i mean 5 min phone call is nothing. One only would call just to get something out of him. And one just dosn't want to i guess....I really just don't understand them. When i was younger i tried real hard to be apart of their lives and my nieces and nephews but i'm just starting to give up. Especially when i see that my dad has given up. I try to keep faith i try to give excuses for some of them. But i can't do all the work. I see how unhealthy he is and this recent by-pass surgery and i look back to my 14th birthday and his only wish was to see all his girls together. And i think at this point he's given up because it seems like one has given up on her life and the other i believe dosn't want to try. So at times i believe i have siblings but then i feel like i'm the only child. Dad treats me more like the only child...i guess it's a good thing for me cause he's focusing more on me and my needs considering i'm 17 and not 27....but then i put more stress on myself cause i'm always trying to find a way to come out on top of them to make him proud. To graduate from high school, to go to college, to be successful in life and have the grandkids that he's always wanted....he has some but hasn't had the real oppurtunity to be the grandfather he wants to be. So because of his health i feel like i try to fastforward my life so the quicker i can achieve it so he can see and experience b4 he goes. Ne ways off the bad note...now for a good one.

This past saturday was a blast! I went to the valley of the flowers and had a great time! The slut wasn't there and really wasn't worried about her. I was worried about having a good time and her ruining it but it didn't happend. So last night was great and i again got a adopted and have ANOTHER mother. Lol....Gus's mom Diora, shes great. I almost thought she was calling me angela i'm like HOL UP! but she was just naming all her daughters...but i sure as hell an't claimin her ass as nothing, NADA! Gus says she dosn't kno the whole case scenario but if she did she wouldn't be up for all that. Ne ways i was worn out from last night and i'm still worn out as to why i'm not doing my hw...but it's all good,lol. I'm hoping this week i'll get called in for a interview cause i need a job! I've gone for over a year with out a job and while with out babysitting. The cash flow is like none. I got some in the account and the withdrawl i'm only gonna make is gonna be for mothers day. She's getting all kids of stuff this year cause i always neglect to get her something for x-mas but mothers day i ALWAYS get her something regardless. I'm deffinately sending her off to get her nails done but i'ma add something else in there....along with makeing her breakfast, cleaning house and we'll probably take her out to dinner or dad will make something if he's up to it. Cause i'm not cooking cause mine isn't always so great,lol. I'm the baker not the cooker. So i'm excited about mothers day....hopefully dad dosn't ruin it like he always does every year.

Another thing i'm kinda getting split from going to college here in the STL or going to a different state. I really just want the best education for Fashion Design. So now i'm torn cause the closer i become a senior the more i don't want to leave my mother. I mean i want to leave the house no doubt but like i wanna be close. I'll just have to see case Florida still sounds nice but so far way....and Chicago is just too cold but Dominican University said they have a really nice Fashion Design program. And i'm just so tired of STL but they say lindenwood is a really good school. And thats like my only 3 choices fa real, which is sad. And they all have some kind of plus...but so far Florida is winning cause of what they offer and it's WARM! Stl has one pluse and one minus. and the same goes for Chicago. So i'm gonna have to get back to you once i talk to my college and career counselour to get this straigten out. So i'ma go and do some college research and such.....and hopefully i'll be writting on here more often if i have time,lol. LOVE YA!

Sam